Changes

Since I even thought about applying for the new post at the office, things have been turbid at best with my mind, I've been trying to make sense of certain things but it never gets any clearer than a glimpse of happiness or a moment of joy. Things I'm trying to cherish but somehow it flows away into memory faster than I can keep track of them.

Now that I've passed the written exam and finished the interview which could lead to the new post, I'm starting to get some forward direction at least in something I value, my job.

Still, its been a long time since i've had anything more intimate than providing quick pleasure and its starting to be not enough...

This leads to my ex who had his college friend over for a night, this guy had some seminar in Manila and didnt have a place to stay. I have to say, I think I was the only guy my ex made a mistake of staying since this guy was cute at the very least, gruff, has meat in the right places but not gym things from mars. I was already entertaining thoughts of seducing the guy but I had work and the guy was to stay for the night only, too bad, I might have made his stay more... colorful than the pictures I took of him.

With the work week almost ending for me, I'm not sure what to do, I feel I want to be chaotic and just get banged and another is to just cuddle in bed whether alone or with company. But even that might get dashed in case I get the post as training MIGHT immediately start on friday, killing any plans I had... changes, a freaking bummer at times, but its something that has to happen...